This week has been weird (which probably has something to do with The Sailor getting deployed). I'm either starving or forcing myself to eat something cuz I know I should. I also feel like I look pregnant, but looking in the mirror doesn't show the way I feel (if that makes any sense at all). I dunno...like I said, this week has been weird!
I've been trying to stop sucking in, but it just feels weird. I danced for a decade and a half; I was trained to never stop sucking in whatever "gut" I have at that moment. I have to consciously make the decision to not suck in, and it only lasts as long as I'm actively thinking about it. I also have a slightly irrational fear that if I stop sucking in I won't just automatically do it anymore post pregnancy.
I found a great crib and changing table-dresser combo on Craigslist this week that only cost me $100! I'm pumped. But when I was picking it up the woman said, "are you pregnant?" And I was like, "yeah, I'm just over 13 weeks; I'm due April 5." And she responds..."oh. You aren't showing at all."
Please people, if a woman ever says she's pregnant, don't say she doesn't look it! I look pregnant to me, so the fact that she didn't think I looked it at all makes my pregnant self think she just thinks I'm chubby. Just say she looks great and leave it at that. I realize I probably should have taken it as a compliment, but I did not. At all. And I'm still a little annoyed by it.
So yeah, I have to go force myself to eat some breakfast cuz right now the thought of eating kinda sounds gross but I haven't eaten in 16 hours.
Until next time...