...because I thought I was ready to talk about everything with her (if you're just tuning in, go read the post titled Consequences and this post will make more sense). She ignored the call. Yeah, it totally cut to voicemail in the middle of the third ring. I may not have been the best daughter in the past few weeks/months, but that still stings.
Especially since I was hoping the conversation would go better than expected and I would tell her I'm pregnant. I guess the Gods didn't think we were ready for that. I don't particularly like the woman, or how she's treated me for most of my life, but she's still my mom! I'm gonna go pout for a while now.
Until next time...
The mother/daughter relationship still gets to me. I thought it would get easier as I got older, but it certainly has not. I posted the pic of my mom and my son, but that was the first time in his whole life that she's held him. She saw him for about 10 minutes of our 3 day trip to FL. No visits, no phone calls, not even an email when I went back to work. I had to visit her, which I try to avoid doing since her bf is a drunk and a smoker, which I don't want my son around.
ReplyDeleteI don't know the history of you and your mom, but just remember that you are awesome and you are entitled to make some mistakes and stumble along the way. Everyone does. It doesn't make you a bad person at all, just a human. Don't let her attitude/behaviors toward you bring down your own view of yourself. I tend to do that, to my own detriment.